Gay Christian Devotion
Psalm 95 (King James Version)
1O come, let us sing unto the LORD: let us make a joyful noise to the rock of our salvation.
2Let us come before his presence with thanksgiving, and make a joyful noise unto him with psalms.
3For the LORD is a great God, and a great King above all gods.
4In his hand are the deep places of the earth: the strength of the hills is his also.
5The sea is his, and he made it: and his hands formed the dry land.
6O come, let us worship and bow down: let us kneel before the LORD our maker.
7For he is our God; and we are the people of his pasture, and the sheep of his hand. To day if ye will hear his voice,
8Harden not your heart, as in the provocation, and as in the day of temptation in the wilderness:
9When your fathers tempted me, proved me, and saw my work.
10Forty years long was I grieved with this generation, and said, It is a people that do err in their heart, and they have not known my ways:
11Unto whom I sware in my wrath that they should not enter into my rest.
The term forty days in the Bible means a long time. The children of Israel tested God for forty years. That was a really long time! They tested God by not living like redeemed, saved people.
When you dwell in the wilderness of self-hate, self-revulsion and self-doubt, you are not living like a redeemed person. Hating yourself for who you are, for being gay or bisexual, feeling revolted for being queer is not living like a redeemed person.
You have tested God by hating yourself, God's creation. And more importantly, you've tested God by doubting God's love. You have done that for a long time. The time of wandering in the spiritual and emotional desert is over. Sing a song to God, for He has saved you and stood with you, even when you hated His creation, yourself, and doubted God's love.