Christmas already? Oh Lord. I am not ready for Christmas in any respect.

Everybody is happy. People are talking about spending time with their families. But I have not family. My family does not want to see me, because I am gay. I am not welcome home for the holidays. I feel very alone. I just cannot get into the season.

Lord, I know this sounds really selfish. Give me some sense of family. Help me find family. Help me get through the discouragement I feel. Affirm me as a your child.